sad day- we can only hope for the best.

So about 2 days ago i found out my cousins Grandpa-Jerry, is not doing ver well. he is sick. He has Stomach Cancer and by the time they found it it was to late and he also has alz timers.(can't spell) so yeah. And yesterday i found out that hes not strong enough to live. so now were all waiting. I feel so bad for Maxine(his wife), Uncle Rick(Jerrys son) , and jordan (jerrys grandson), and cassie and Auntie Ven and Uncle Walt. Honestly i only met him a few times and i am not related to him, but still. Family and friends are all the same. Its hard for my cousin because He lost his mom(my auntie) and its so hard to explaing the feeling in words n a blog. Cause i know who's ever reading this probally does not understand how i process it in my mind. I miss my Auntie K.

I wrote this for Jerry:

If only you knew what it feels like. To have a secret you can't tell. You have a life filled with joy until now. its hard to imagine how many years life can overcome. With love and compasion you have friends all above.A prayer each night can only give us visual sight,
A intake on what its likfe after we rise to the clouds. Why now? Why you? At this time love can only be spread by a prayer that sends a letter to the heart. We can only wish for the best.

Dear Lord,
I pray that everyone who is with you to be safe.
To give people a second chance in life.
I pray that our hidden secrets will be revealed,
To all be taken seriously.
Give those who rise a second perspective of life.
I pray that you teach people to have no regrets,
They were not the cause.
The effect was so sudden.
There are things in life we can not understand,
And thats why we come to you.
In you name we praise.
Amen.

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Tonight we(My mom, Kiki, Lauren and Nadine,) are going out to dinner cause lauren is leaving this friday. aww i am gonna miss her. I love her so much. Were going to McMinimums. something like that. it will be fun, so i have to go straight from tumbling to there. YIKES- my hair will be yucky. :( well thats okay. i'll live. Well gotta go, BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Amanda Panda Mandy Moo-