just me and my life sayin hi!

UP there^ is me faking a smile that i was happy and excited when i was liek AHHH *MY head was gonna blow off my head* too many emotions!*
Yesterday~
SO yesterday i went to my grandmas(nonnis) and went to the Kite Festival! Its this really awesome thing. People fly their own kites for like a whole week. there are so many varities.! i got some italian charms for my braclet one says luv my beagle, a carebear and um a sand dollar to remind me of the beach. I luv my grandmas house, its like 1 or 2 miles from the beach. cool huh? and its only like 2 hours away, 2 1/2 if you go the long pretty way! the short way you cross over thie BIG BIG HUGE! bridge thats really scary but cool at the same time. i'm just blabbing- sorry!
Today~
Today before we left i was looking at some pictures there was some before i left to texas well it was the day i left and i was hugging my mom good-bye crying and omg my heart just sank whith emotion, i am so LUCKY to be able and go places, have a life, a home, friends, i am LUCKY to have go and see Morgan and Maddy, I was thinking about them today. i have not talked to them in a while. normally i call them once a week and 2 weeks is the MAX limit. its way to long.....Life is amazing. Honestly i have to re think that i am real or like shake myself out of this feeling. i feel like i'm not real and were like a myth and its weird. here are the pictures.

What i want to do in life and become:
Photographer
Poet
Publish a book of all my writings
Turn my writings into songs
Singer
go to college
finish college
Coach Cheer
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If any of my friends/Family are reading this now i just want to THANK YOU for being in my life. You are all wonderful people and i am glad you understand this side of me that is not always shown. i am very kept quiet about my writings i don't share a lot with all, it depends. I could not have become who i am without you all. we learn from each other and become a post of each other to rely(rest on) on. Well its getting kinda late. GOOD NIGHT! (time:10:27)
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TUmbling was really good tonight- i got a alot better at my round-off Back-Handspring! this new girl tynia has been helping with tumbling and she reminds me so much of my cousin cassie its wierd in a good way. She was at Cheer Camp too. Cheer camp was fun(all VCA teams even minis)- only i had more fun last year this camp was only VCA last year it was VCA(jr. and Sr. teams) provided by Pac West so yeah- i have no idea why i don't have a standing back handspring by myself yet.... kinda stupid really. Coach Jen said tonight when i was doing my back handsprings with her i was lifting my right leg up like i was diong a LIBERTY in the air while doing a back handspring,,,, make sense? no? yes? well thats okay! my mommy watched tonight yay!
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Me crying~ aww i am gonna miss my mommy~ but i had a great time once i was there!!

Me crying before i left~

When i was in TEXAS! i miss them all tons! see no worries at all. they take away everything that i am scared,sad, or having a bad day about. just hearing their voice is calming! if your(Mark,Jeanene,Morgan and Maddy) reading this... I LOVE YOU!xoxo kisses xoxo
What Cuties!

< Just the girls being very funny, ya gotta love them!


well i think i am gonna go to bed NOW! for sure this time,,,its 10:48

I love you all,
GOODNIGHT!
Love always,
Amanda panda